The days and weeks after Bill passed away are difficult for me to think about. It was the most unreal, out-of-reality time I have ever experienced. There was deep emotional pain, hurt, confusion, desperation, fear, uncertainty, disorientation, and sadness. Even the words “deep emotional pain” don’t come close to explaining what it actually felt like….
Sometimes grief finds us in the most ordinary moments. For me, it was a drawer full of old dish towels and a baker’s rack that has followed me through 23 years of life. A reflection on unexpected grief triggers, treasured memories, faith, and finding gratitude even in sadness.
Grab a seat by the fire. Tonight, I’m just being real. Hello. I’m just going to write, into the void. I don’t know who’s reading this. Sometimes I think, no one is reading. With the way the world is right now, who reads? We are entertained by videos, reels, visuals, does anyone care about reading…
“On the Fly” Musings and a Xennial DIY mission… Hello! This blog post is written with absolutely no plan. I was reading my Bible this morning, had a few astounding revelations and I realized, I need to keep writing here, but sometimes…life. It’s so busy right??? Time may seem so slow for some, but for…
The Mirror: Finding My New Identity Hello friend! Recently, I was cleaning a home (I clean homes on the side for extra income). I was cleaning a beautiful cherry wood mirror. You may have seen them. It was oval shaped and on a stand that allowed it to swivel. I paused longer than I should…
A Dream About Birds: A Reflection on Rest, Trust, and Faith Of all the animals in the world, and wow, God made so many, I can never stop loving birds. Horses are majestic. Lions, powerful. But birds? Birds are the ones I can’t stop watching, small, vulnerable, and somehow completely free. I always pay attention…
A New Year Prayer for Strength When You Feel Down Hello friends! Here it is AGAIN. A new year. Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful, but wow! Already? Really? A couple of days ago, I looked back on my journal from a year ago. It was refreshing. I figured out financing for my roof, and…
Hello Reader and Friend. I would like to say that I put up this post shortly after the first part of my overview and thoughts on Mel Robbins’ video “8 Things to Tell Yourself Every Morning,” but (sigh) here I am, having taken a little longer than I planned. My schedule is sporadic and I…
Hello Friend! It’s a new day. Let’s Retrain Your Brain. How does your day normally start? Unfortunately, mine pretty much starts, most days, by waking up 30 minutes before my alarm goes off. You know that perfect amount of time that is long enough to go back to sleep but too short that by the…
What to Do When a Spouse Dies (Part One of the “Heart After Loss” Series) I don’t love talking about this part of my life, but it’s one of the main reasons I created this space.I want to share my faith, my stories, my life with Bill, our daughter, and the pieces of my journey…